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Friday, April 17, 2009, 9:01 PM
I'm sick, like finally.. I guess people must be thinking why on Earth would someone want to be sick? I guess I foreseed it coming to me so many days ago. I haven't really eaten, fighting a very bad headache that makes me want to vomit at times. I feel hungry but I don't really feel like eating something. Its Saturday tomorrow but yet I have to attend a 6 hours talk at TP, how bad can that be? I've been yearning to watch funny movies to make me laugh, been thinking maybe chocolates can't even make me happy now, or perhaps a tub of Ben&Jerrys might just do the trick. I feel so hollow, I've not mentioned that I felt lonely. I feel like this is not my world anymore. Problems are forever piling up.. one after another. Friends, are someone whom you share the strongest possible kind of friendship, why aren't anyone of you cherishing it? This world has turn into a scary one, you have people who act as your friends then the next moment they change their face and turn their back against you. I'm not implementing fault within any, but I just find all of this, and what I'm and have been facing, everything's getting more complicated. Maybe life is really taking a toll on me, school, problems, you, family, friends.. I wished they were all just nightmares, a bad dream. If i could i would, willingly, take this mask down and run, run and never look back anymore. All this, to me, is too much to carry withinI'm still hanging on.. I'm still trying to go on strong, hold back my tears, bite my tongue and tell myself 'Don't give up Charlene, you can do this'..