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Saturday, May 30, 2009, 12:07 AM
Lie, when it hurtsThrough a fake smile lies a pathetic soul behind. Its in everyone you can never run away from it. But till the end you will see clearly how far it will bring you to, how long it will survived over you, how badly it will destroy you
I failed. As a friend, a lover, a parent, a 17 years old child. I wonder at times why is all of this happening to me but its through a fate called destiny. I tried to face this world knowing so much that i can't, i never gave up. It was till the end I realised that there was nothing at all, there was only myself. It wasn't about sorrys, about chances, disappointment, about tears, loneliness or fears.
It was hurt. Something that always happens, something that you can never expect how much it can be. You always thought you could face it, but infact that was just running away. It wasn't just about me. It was in everyone, including yourself.
Now just ask yourself this one question. Are you living in hurt? Are you really facing up or finding just another form of escaping. Do you know exactly how much hurt is all about?
Its not about losing a family member, nor was it failing in life. It wasn't about having boundaries with friends, or having a hard time in school.
It was everything, everything about losing your total heart, your soul. Would you, my dear, understand any of this? Would you have any idea how helpless it was to be when i sat at the beach that midnight? Would you get to feel for once just how hard it is to die especially when you tried so hard but you always failed in the end?
I tried. I am, still. I'm trying so hard to fix this back to a whole
Because they were once so strong, so beautiful