Remember to forget

2009-07-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

2009-06-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

I have officially shifted.

2009-06-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

I need a break, fall, out

I'm tryin' to protect you
From the lies that your heart tells
Even though it says that you love me
All I see is pain and misery
Seasons may change
But I can't forget the days of old
My heart ached when you walked away
I said I'd never love again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
'cause I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

Who said those words before?

2009-06-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

我找不到　我到不了你所謂的將來的美好我什麼都不要知不知道若你懂我　這一秒我想看到　我在尋找那所謂的愛情的美好我緊緊的依靠　緊緊守牢不敢漏掉　一絲一毫　願你看到

2009-06-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

I never thought honesty could break someone's heart. To be exact, it was mine

2009-06-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

It was only till today I realised how much i still miss you. I turned around and found that they were all still there. Nothing's changed, its been just too long

2009-06-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

What about now

I'm down with 2 more to go, Housekeeping and Econs. Damn I seriously hope I won't flunk my maths or else i'll have to cough out 75 bucks for referral again. But phew, its a 1 or 2 pointer anyway. Who cares, MY MATHS SUCKS RIGHT FROM THE START OK. I guess all the other subjects would be fine (or just fine) except Econs. Argh don't fail me please. I'll study you inside out for this last time.

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There's just so many things i wanna do right after my exams. Though its not that long I'm still anticipating so much for the upcoming holidays. Was it 2 weeks? Well, make it 3 then. I'm gonna get my Havaianas together with Jaimy after Sat's paper. Next week onwards I'm gonna go crazy on shopping. I haven really bought much stuffs for this year's gss, so we should do it now! Shopping with B, Lesbian, Bren, Boon og so much more

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I'm taking part in the Asian Youth Games commencing soon which is first offically launched in Singapore. Come to think of it, though i always mumble and grumble, well.. it can be a nice experience anyway. Moreover, I'm working with Serjie, Sean from the 2nd to the 9th. Guess it'd be cool :)

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I hope our family is still going back to Hong Kong this end of year becus I can't wait to shop (Like again). Please H1N1 won't you do everyone a good deed by being good? So me can go back without having to be quarantined (Who knows!)

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Lastly I browsed through your blog and seen your pictures. Realising how much you were happy now makes me realised that maybe we weren't that important right from the start to you. I don't wanna say much, though i know we still miss you at times not knowing if you felt the same way too. Anyway.... All the best.

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Sorry for the jumbling up of posts. I just type whatever comes to my mind actually. I'm practically falling asleep when I' supposed to be studying for Housekeeping. Oh god, save me

Ralph Lauren! Wait for me!!!!

2009-06-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

We need some peace here Lord.

2009-06-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

I seriously, desperately, fucking, really, really wanna get that scar off my legs. I guess only magic would work somehow. Yes, I'm disappointed of everything. Yes, for a sudden while I feel like i belong no where now

Its been a month baby. Were you doing fine? I wished i could let you know how much i really missed you but I just can't find those words on Thesaurus. Every single bit of you still lingers here, with me.

xoxo

2009-06-15T22:16:00.005+08:00

Affinity for this whole lifetime

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Field trip to Klenco, Tuas

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AYG meeting @ Swiss Hotel

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Party world with B, Les and Johnny

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Icing room, Hayat's birthday!

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Winniezxzx

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Charlenezxzx (Inside joke)

I should have long ago gave up on dreaming.

2009-06-14T16:03:00.004+08:00

I wished days could be much better than these.

2009-06-13T17:05:00.001+08:00

What is seriously fucking wrong. Fuck this feeling off me.

2009-06-12T23:33:00.001+08:00

God bless me win 4D tomorrow please.

2009-06-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

Some things just stays the best as it was, like how it was used to be. Your drastic change made me realised have I really know you right from the start. Because you won't this way in the past. I just know it too well in my heart. You may be different now. I guess you're better off and happier now

I miss you. The you i used to know

2009-06-10T23:19:00.004+08:00

Chasing pavements

I woke up late today, I took a space cab (Likka cool only)
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Econs project is finally down, like finally its over
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Daddy turned 58 today, he's 40 years older than me
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Orea c.c from Eatzi Gourmet is horrible (I think)
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I feel like baking all of a sudden though I've never tried before
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I start school at 9 tomorrow and ends at 10
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Wtf
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I think i need to go into long term hibernation
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Exams are scheduled next week, then comes my holiday
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I desperately need God to give me a miracle
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Won't you drop money down together with rain too?

I'm so tired I think i can sleep 24 hours straight.

2009-06-10T00:10:00.003+08:00

Determination for love, love to determine

I've weird classmates who take pictures of their asses and boxers with my webcam! Tsk. So annoying lah. I'm super happy/sad that I cut my fringe. Waikiat says I look good in the center parting nor. Whenever B sees my center parting picture she goes high too. Whatever it is, school is fun. Presentation is on tomorrow, with work less than 70% done. Argh, I hate projects. Especially Econs, I'm so gonna kill Jenny Lai for her irritating sub. Alright, I need to get back to work now. Ciaos

By the way, someone hacked my msn account!! So if you happen to lose my contact, or whatever case it is, just talk to me online so that i can retrieve back yours!

To my B who loves to eat almond (everything about almond she loves and idk why) I love you supa much okay. Xoxoxoxozxzxzxzxz. Muacks.

I think i need stronger determination. I think I need only you.

2009-06-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

You're 3 months old today baby, happy birthday, i love you

2009-06-07T00:51:00.005+08:00

Walk me through open doors and lead me back to you

10 bucks per day gives me a happy weekend. Super anticipating in GSS. Tgiw (Weekends) but can't they be longer? Chomp2 was duper great with cliques, I wished we could chill out more like this! I think I need a new haircut desperately. I feel like going BANGS on my fringe again. HOW!??!

Feat B aka Ahchua!

I think center parting is the IN thing now. What do you think?
Who wants to go shopping with me next week?

here I am, still holding on

2009-06-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

Long for these longings

Jihoo, will you please please pleaseeee marry me?
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His smile reminds me of someone special, any idea Bren? :)
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Life is a cannot-live-without B, Lesbian & Sweeeeetheart
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School is so damn fucking bored, especially the-econs-la
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Sometimes I think, can i meet someone like you again?
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I wonder if i would ever find someone like you ~~again.~~

2009-06-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

Its all about you

It feels good to be alive again. Am still catching up with school work. And by the way, I had a changed of number. Those who want my new contact can text me on msn. Apparently i don't have everyone's inside mine.

School ended early. Met up with baby @ Town. We went to shop (Like finally) after being isolated and deprived of Orchard. We walked and buy, buy and eat, eat and buy again, dead beat after a long day in school but it was definitely worth every second spending quality time together. Got her a super late present but hope she likes it! We had chicken rice cravings and got whatever we wanted before we left for home.

I'm sorry baby Omnia!!!!!!!!! I promised it won't happen for the second time (I'll try!!!!)

2009-06-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

Love

"This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states."

Don't lie because you know the truth will hit you hard, it will tear everything of you down

2009-05-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

Meet my deepest doubts and tell me you have a cure

2009-05-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

Lie, when it hurts

Through a fake smile lies a pathetic soul behind. Its in everyone you can never run away from it. But till the end you will see clearly how far it will bring you to, how long it will survived over you, how badly it will destroy you

I failed. As a friend, a lover, a parent, a 17 years old child. I wonder at times why is all of this happening to me but its through a fate called destiny. I tried to face this world knowing so much that i can't, i never gave up. It was till the end I realised that there was nothing at all, there was only myself. It wasn't about sorrys, about chances, disappointment, about tears, loneliness or fears.

It was hurt. Something that always happens, something that you can never expect how much it can be. You always thought you could face it, but infact that was just running away. It wasn't just about me. It was in everyone, including yourself.

Now just ask yourself this one question. Are you living in hurt? Are you really facing up or finding just another form of escaping. Do you know exactly how much hurt is all about?

Its not about losing a family member, nor was it failing in life. It wasn't about having boundaries with friends, or having a hard time in school.

It was everything, everything about losing your total heart, your soul. Would you, my dear, understand any of this? Would you have any idea how helpless it was to be when i sat at the beach that midnight? Would you get to feel for once just how hard it is to die especially when you tried so hard but you always failed in the end?

I tried. I am, still. I'm trying so hard to fix this back to a whole

Because they were once so strong, so beautiful

2009-05-26T22:52:00.004+08:00

You win Mum, you always do don't you? Everything changed, you made me lose my heart but don't you see Mum. You lost your soul. Pathetic Mum, I feel so pathetic for the first time

2009-05-23T18:02:00.009+08:00

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know
We'll be so far apart
I love you too much
To make you stay
Baby fly away

He tells me "it hurts so badly" in my dreams.

2009-05-23T12:05:00.001+08:00

Tell me why you're so hard to forget

Baby, those times when you were still with me
I really miss you so much

Who do I call family now? I wished I had the answer

2009-05-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

A letter to heaven

Goodbye J, M&D will miss you very much. I hope you are safe and sound somewhere better now. Everytime I close my eyes I see you and your everything. I dream of you and C every night. I can almost imagine life 10 years down the road with you. I just want to tell you that I miss you very much. I'm so sorry to have to do this but I will always be with you. Whereever you go I will be there for you. I love you

Your most beloved

2009-04-29T20:14:00.001+08:00

i'm dying

2009-04-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

Depending my life on those wonder pills, thinking when can all this discomfort stop

2009-04-26T22:25:00.003+08:00

Fall

I probably really had enough. I gave my best. I will never ever fucking believe in anyone true anymore. They will be, eventually just lies, all of them. I fucking had enough.

You win, I admit defeat because I don't wanna have a part in this game for two anymore. I'm tired. I quit.

2009-04-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

You're human so am I
I'm just also one pathetic fucking human get it
fuck it all okay, just fuck all this shit

2009-04-25T15:02:00.002+08:00

<3

I'm craving for Starbucks Mocha Frap,
craving for Ben&Jerrys's Cookie dough
craving for sushi and sides at Sushi Tei
craving for Gelare waffles with ice cream
craving for Octopus Takoyaki at Plaza Sing
craving for Green Tea Pasta at Charocal
craving for Brownie with Vanilla ice cream
craving for..... Rib eye Steak!

I'm hungry now, stupid cravings :/

2009-04-24T21:51:00.002+08:00

Screwed

I had a very bad day.
I wished tomorrow will be a better one,

2009-04-23T23:28:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden.. I got this urge to get married, especially at those beautiful church in Rome, they're simply gorgeous. I want to walk down the aisle, pledge my love to the man i would love with all of my life. I want to wear beautiful gowns and dance in the centre of the ballroom where others would look and go 'Wow.. they're so compatible'. All of a sudden.. I want to have kids so badly. I want to feel them in my arms when they're first born. I want to watch them grow up every single day, teach them how to plant flowers (LOL), bring them to MacDonalds every Sunday! (So envy of my neighbours whose parents does that) So I'm gonna pamper my kids! I want to bring them out for picnics and spent quality time with them. I want to work hard with my husband and bring them out for tours every year (Hopefully!) HAHAH. All of a sudden.. all of a sudden, I feel like I will miss my parents alot one day if they're gone, when they're not by my side anymore.. When they leave me for a better place with God..

All of a sudden, I see a further meaning to life, to marriage, to love, to living happily ever after. All of a sudden.. I think of you again

2009-04-22T21:07:00.004+08:00

And I'm in so deep, you know I'm sucha fool for you

Have you ever thought what if the world ends? Thought about all the things you want to complete? I guess I'm paranoid but here's mine.

I want to graduate successfully getting a Diploma. Venture into airlines prospects. I want to hold my Dad's hand in the church and get married by 24. I want a loving husband who would love me more than he love himself, be there to support me emotionally and physically, spent more time with me more than he works, pampers me, care and concern about me. I want to have our small family with 2 childrens.. I even had their names ready. I wished to live in a penthouse that has spiral staircase (Not materialistic, it has always been my dream). I want to do sweet things together like the housechores, packing up stuffs, pinic etc. Lastly, I want to go grocery shopping with him every Sunday and hopes we'll stay like this happily ever after.

I know it sounds retard but yeah, face it. Its been a topic for Ass, B and Serjie (or maybe others/everyone) to start thinking about it. Are you really ready to face it?

Wait up, I need to throw up again.. I'm still not getting well. Till then,

2009-04-21T22:23:00.001+08:00

Stairway to Heaven

I'm sick, I'm losing my appetite. I'm fighting against strong dizzy spells especially everytime I awake from sleep. I keep having the same dreams, they seemed like telling me that something's gonna happen, or I should do something to change destiny.

Someday..

2009-04-20T22:00:00.005+08:00

Tears, just tonight, allow me

Seeking, waiting, believing, true, untrue, facade, false pretense, trusting, hoping, loving, I've long ago learnt to hide away. All this emotions, myself. I've never yearn for anyone to understand or put themselves in my shoes for all the things that happened in my life, but in every moment, I've learnt that even a Man made of steel wants to be appreciated and loved in the end.

I do too, but I always feel otherwise. Maybe sometimes I try too hard, wanting things to be perfect, going the best possible way i can ever picture. I wished God made me a better man, I wished I was not me.

I'm tired, I'm so tired.. For once I wished I could forget the world completely.

2009-04-19T23:43:00.003+08:00

Stay with me, stand by me, nobody but you

Hello baby! Bet you guys missed me! Haha, I'm back for a proper update (Like finally) Pardon me for my lazyness, I've been getting sick recently. But I'm well again now :) And I'm back with pictures, Lots and lots of pictures (SUPER MASSIVE)

Today, Me and Sis planned to visit the newly opened Tampines 1. OMG, trust me you don't wanna go there (in any time to come). Its fucking loaded with humans, like everyone fighting for oxygen together! Fyi I don't think Uniqlo is as good is it was in my impression. I mean I find it quite disapointing lah. And apparently all the sizes, like mine, are long-before-grabbed -.- They're just left with bigger sizes. Tsk, SO NOT FAIR! But their basics are at affordable price though, you can go grab them fast! (But you have to queue like LV to get in y'know, LMAO)

Was supposed to meet Jaimy and Sean for dinner, but plan changed. Me and Sis dined @ Din Tai Feng right after getting my Mango top. Anyway I had a tiff with Mummy before I came out for shopping, super duper sad lah.

Anyway, here it goes!

We had Steam chicken soup, Ma la soup, Xiao long bao!!!! And Fried rice. Ugh, sinfu I know!

18 April, Saturday, I can't believed we pulled through the 5 hours talk. It wasn't that boring to be exact. Thank to Yucai who accompanied me to Expo for Mega John Little Sale! Nothing much to shop though, but that girl got herself 2 NUM Tees @ a special rate during an hourly offer!

Note to Yucai: You can hao lian/rant to Pearlin liao! Bet she's gonna go, WTFFFFF

Alright, here's all the pictures I promised to upload. They're all taken in school when lessons get too bored! Source: Pearlin's Nokia 3.2 MP phone!

PEARLIN YOU SUCK BECUS YOU FAILED STARTING FROM 6! Bleahs =P

Some NORMAL pictures. HAHA Featuring B, Pigu and me

First day of school! Feat. Brian, Pigu and me

EXCLUSIVELY ONLY ME & PEARLIN. SUPER RETARD!

I'm super happy because I managed to download all my favourite korean drama songs! Especially those that I was wanting since so long! And is anticipating for tomorrow because Yuying's Chinese Dance is going for their SYF! (Now I'm stuck becus I don't know whether I wanna skip school, or not)

Anyway girls, I've got nothing for you but wishings and all of my luck. You girls have come so far, worked so hard, sure you guys don't wanna disappoint people who have been encouraging you, giving you hope, and making you girls feel proud right? You girls are all of our most proudiest sweethearts, and I wished you all the best, whether I'm there or not. Definitely hoping you guys can retain the Gold-with-honour Award we did together 2 years again! Let lose of yourself, the stage is yours now. Jiayou girls, you will always be the best in my heart. Remember we do it all for one, one for all :)

With lots and lots of love for my super dancers,
Charlene.

2009-04-17T21:01:00.007+08:00

I'm sick, like finally.. I guess people must be thinking why on Earth would someone want to be sick? I guess I foreseed it coming to me so many days ago. I haven't really eaten, fighting a very bad headache that makes me want to vomit at times. I feel hungry but I don't really feel like eating something. Its Saturday tomorrow but yet I have to attend a 6 hours talk at TP, how bad can that be? I've been yearning to watch funny movies to make me laugh, been thinking maybe chocolates can't even make me happy now, or perhaps a tub of Ben&Jerrys might just do the trick. I feel so hollow, I've not mentioned that I felt lonely. I feel like this is not my world anymore. Problems are forever piling up.. one after another. Friends, are someone whom you share the strongest possible kind of friendship, why aren't anyone of you cherishing it? This world has turn into a scary one, you have people who act as your friends then the next moment they change their face and turn their back against you. I'm not implementing fault within any, but I just find all of this, and what I'm and have been facing, everything's getting more complicated. Maybe life is really taking a toll on me, school, problems, you, family, friends.. I wished they were all just nightmares, a bad dream. If i could i would, willingly, take this mask down and run, run and never look back anymore. All this, to me, is too much to carry within

I'm still hanging on.. I'm still trying to go on strong, hold back my tears, bite my tongue and tell myself 'Don't give up Charlene, you can do this'..

2009-04-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

Light on

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up

2009-04-13T21:04:00.001+08:00

其实我在哭我都是一个人在哭

2009-04-12T22:56:00.004+08:00

我好累

The sprain hasn't been doing good for me, difficulties going everywhere, almost walking. The wound started to peel and I can already forsee the scar that will be left behind. Uncomfortable, vomitting, fever, feeling unwell.. nightmares of.. maybe better luck next time.

I miss home. Somewhere I can call home. Somewhere where I return for someone to catch me when i fall, come what may

2009-04-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

Someone said

Be strong
Tomorrow would be better

I cried. ~~I miss you~~

2009-04-09T21:45:00.005+08:00

Only Human

You must have not know how hard I tried just to get home. Not knowing how much effort i've put in. I cried as the rain drizzled down. I felt lonely. If only time can (always) stop and rewind, probably back to the most sweetest slide..

How great if 'sorry' didn't exist at all. So everyone can set aside their pride and ego and make everything work oh-so-perfectly. And we wouldn't have to put up a brave front and carry on life crying inside or like hell.

I have no idea which is my next step anymore. Where should i go, where do i actually belong.. What am i supposed to do, how do i go about acting? I've never been so pessimistic in life, till the extent I.. I wished for all the good things to happen, but so much for wishing, i know they will never come true

I do not need a reason to blame God for all of this. But i cried as i failed, all my wishful thinking, so much just to wish for someone to hold, and say "Baby, everything's gonna be alright...."

2009-04-09T04:48:00.002+08:00

You broke me

2009-04-09T00:39:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday babe, I'm so sorry that i couldn't make it in time to wish you on the dot. Neither did I get to pass you any of your gifts on your big day. Please trust me that we're not drifting because I will always love you forever, I'll be your best bf when you need someone. I'm still counting on to the 6th year of our friendship and i hope our love will always last.

With love,
Ahnian

2009-04-08T08:16:00.003+08:00

I will not post here anymore. If people view my blog just for ambushing, then i had enough. Fuck off. IT never ever pays to be kind. OPPS I FORGOT, you're always the kind one uh you? The most pathetic one, the one always giving up, feel like the world is against you, feels like YOU'RE FUCKING GOING THROUGH THE PAIN WHEN NOBODY ELSE IS? C'mon WAKE UP. You're being oblivious to others. Ya you think others don't feel the pain too?

I've NEVER want you to guess or READ my mind. I will lead the FUCKING life I want. YA and I will LOSE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE being this way. Becus I SHUT people OUT and BLAME people for NOT UNDERSTANDING. I've never said I'll do okay without my friends. WHAT? I can't SIT WITH THEM, enojy and take pictures? Looks who's talking. Are you crying every day in school? Are you sitting alone? I see you always laughing out loud so clearly. You mean you don't know?

YA and I tried to ACT FUCK UP when I'm not. Saying my dad may be retrenched or my leg hurts. And i still can joke on facebook? YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT? SAVING UP CANNOT ALSO ISSIT.

Moral of the story is I TELL PEOPLE PURPOSELY TO GET SYMPATHY VOTES. YOU HAPPY? You know what, I DIDN'T even requested that you should take a look at my blog. You not happy with my facebook status? Need me to delete you? Or probably YOU CAN DO THAT YOURSELF. BECUS I DON'T CARE. You say you do everything also wrong. People do everything ALSO WRONG. Then fine

I hope i make you see clear enough. Ths is ALWAYS the ending we'll get. So fuck it ok. FUCK IT ALL AND GO AWAY. Don't even VIEW MY BLOG or SEE MY FB. So simple, you don't like me then fuck off lah.

2009-04-07T22:23:00.004+08:00

Smile like you never did, laugh as if you've never learn to cry

I got shot for 42 times by a mad woman on the first day of school. I think practically she has gone crazy over me. HAHAHHA. New sem sucks with new sucky teachers, i miss those old ones though.. BENNY!! I drag myself to a sinseh after 5 days of injury cos apparently the wound still hurts (damn) and the blueblack never seem to dismiss even alittle. SOoooo I screamed at the clinic and the doctor said i broke one of my leg bone at the foot... @#@$%%^&^ and therefore the blood clots there, cannot circulate!!

Mummy got Sis a Canon Dslr for her school purposes. I will start saving soon. I hope Daddy will pull through this economy crisis.. so as our family. So please save up peeps! HAHA anyway I'll blog the pictures soon okay. I promise. With jack jack and Sis's, and the fucking mad woman (LOLLL)

Dinner is always best with home cooked food! Hees first time Mummy bought bubble tea together with me!

I.. can't feel anything.

2009-04-06T21:31:00.003+08:00

Nobody understands how this feels, no one at all. Sometimes people claim that they do, but do they really understand what you're going through as well as the feeling that within the soul? Sorry, I feel really down. I just need to runaway for tonight.

I was naive. But i chose to.

2009-04-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

I fell down again, this time worst. Now i'm barely walking well, more like a fucking 2-legged creature

2009-04-04T00:16:00.003+08:00

I had Mac for breakfast today
I caught Confessions of a Shopaholic @ AMK
I fell on FLAT land and twisted my leg (Idk how)
I enjoyed my movie today
I found out that the bruises get worst
I headed down Hg and met with my babes
I together with them had 'nehneh talk' (Inside joke)
I went home around 7 plus
I lost one of the chalet stuff's receipt, babi
I was home alone till Dad came back
I was screaming like fuck when he rubbed my feet
Tsk. And Mummy said its just small-cased
WTF

I'm starting to think why did I fall.

2009-04-02T15:46:00.009+08:00

CHALET 09 and Cousin's Commissioning Ball

Hello earthlings, me is back from chalet. Awwww, miss me? You better do! Cus I'm doing a proper update today!

Alright, Chalet was fun though. Haha I brought piglet there on a vacation trip for holiday. Went to Sheng siong first on Tuesday's afternoon. Bought all the needed stuffs (Ps. don't ever go to Loyang Point's Sheng siong loh, so small only) Wth. Sayang came to fetch me from there to chalet. You know she and WL damn kuku until take wrong bus all the way until punggol? WTFFFF sial pantat you! MUAHAHAHAHA. WL: I thought she was kuku enough already, but you and her also sama sama!!

Anyway our place is so in-depth in Changi lah. And according OCH is just beside our chalet. Scary sial. Tsk, played captain's ball on the first evening followed by the BBQ. The pyjamas party PLAN FAIL LOH. Cus alot of ppl no pyjamas. Stupid, excuses only! Anyway many came aftermath and it gets more and more noisy! Drank at night playing so many silly games. Im so happy everybody came together sitting together in a circle at the living room. It just feels like family, ohana :) Indian poker and match making alpha games really made me laugh my ass off. The best part is when Danial PRANK CALL someone. Damn funny i tell you.

(CONVO)

D: Hello, my parrot fly inside your house. Can help me take anot?
Anonymous: HUH?
D: My parrot help inside your house, can help me take?
A: What parrot?
D: Parrot lah. P-A-R-R-O-T, you don't know is it?
D: If you cannot take, help me ask your mum help me take can?

(HANG UP)

Apparently that guy don't wanna give up to find out who's playing this stupid joke on him. He actually called back 3 times ok. DAMN FUNNY

(PICK UP)

D: Hello my PARROT come back already. Thank you ah.

LOLLLLLL DAMN FUNNY SHIT SIAL. In the middle of the night like 2 plus, how will you react? Lols bet you must thinking who the hell is this, or like am i dreaming?

We went on drinking after the prank call. Then some of them went out for late supper. Some left, and I continued to drink, till Im tired enough to fall asleep soundly. I remembered going to bed at around 4 plus.

Woke up in the late morning, prepared and went for our brunch. Started playing card games and damn, i must say, Brian you really make my day always! Thanks so much for all the stupid games you can come up with. I'll never EVER forget the hamster part ok. I sweared you looked adorable lah. Really similar to hamster too. We jam as well, cool shit. Head out around 5 plus to get some more food for BBQ that night. We had dinner early though. Soon after Pearlin Brian and Sean left. Hasif gf came and we watched Step up 2. Slack bathed and everything. Played cards till late and slept. Anyway thanks for the dim sum monkey :)

Checked out today at 1030 and went for lunch @ Century square. And did I not mention, I carried all those BBQ stuffs back home ok. (Like an idiot) So many stuffs loh and worst still, in the end my mango paper bag failed me. How sad, lucky we were of proximity back home already. LUCKY I TELL YOU.

Yeah thats about the whole event. And you know what, its like THURSDAY ALREADY? Damn I'm like starting school in 3 days time, AGAIN. Time really passes fast. I wished we had a month of hoidays, as compared to Polys we're always so much at a DISADVANTAGE can. The longest holidays i ever had in Shatec was right after attachment which lasted like 2 weeks plus? ARGH, and know what, the new timetable sucks too.

SO MUCH FOR PAYING TO SHATEC. Alright, let pictures do the talking. I'm getting alittle sleepy already. Just before i go, let me show you my handsome boy :)

Cute bo? Right after bathing just now!

(Playing Twister, the cause of my muscle aches as well)

(Seductive sial... BABOK found at the right place. HAHAHA)

(I bought the Melody apron for him!)

Cousin's Commissioning Ball @ Beaufort Hotel

(The dessert is damn yummylicious)

She's Joanna :)

2009-03-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna fight no more

2009-03-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

Everything is just a lie

2009-03-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

3 down, 4 more to go

2009-03-22T17:08:00.008+08:00

Dinner @ Chomp chomp
Tommy Hilfiger watch
River Island Prom dress
SPELLS
HAPPY CHARLS.
Heees.

2009-03-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

EXAMS - STUDY - BE RIGHT BACK

You changed but I'm still here

2009-03-19T19:19:00.004+08:00

Home sweet home

Ok though we always love to quarrel and argue but I still love you the best okay. Tsk bet you must be grinning inside out. Or laughing like a idiot behind my comp screen (Which you always do!!) HAHA. Stop scolding me and I'll stop my nonsense too! Fair? Yes fair and square :D

BB!! Now you know how much i love you right! I won't neglect you de ok. You're always my mind!

2009-03-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

Was supposed to study but PLAN FAILED... U-turn back to Hub wanting to catch Marley and me, but apparently i guessed it showed down. Race to Witch Mountain by The Rock was rather cool though. We headed down to Bishan NL hoping to study, but that ass just refuses to. Moral of the story is Pearlin you owe me one!!

This world is never too much for me to take as long as you're in it

2009-03-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

Brand new start, I gave my blogspot a new face. Looks good doesn't it? I spent my whole morning cum evening touching up on it. Yucai came over during the noon and we did up the rest of the banquet stuffs. Presentations are almost over, wait up, I said almost though. Banquet presentation is scheduled on this coming Saturday which marks the end of all presentations too. Argh I can't wait for it to be over asap though I know I'll be scared. I just want to feel holidays nearer to me infact. Haaa

I've been missing school lately.. Been really sick till the fact I don't even have the energy to wake up on days like that. I kinda miss school though, where all my best gfs are. I've been staying home most of the time, watching my cute little babies play around and have dinner. I realised they're becoming more adorable. And fat of cus. I talked to Jack jack when I get bored.

Ah.... I've officially finished the whole series of "One litre of Tears". The show was really great, touching, everything about family love, fatal diseases and how she found herselves in everybody's heart. Aww.. It was really sweet thought. Aya was really a brave girl, catch her true story on that. I'm so gonna buy that book from Kino. I bet I cried more than one litre of tears la, maybe two?

Its self proclaimed off days today and tomorrow. No school is good. Hees. Major exams are up next week already. Ps. I need to get a formal dress for Cousin's commissioning ball on the 28th. I can't wait for chalet to come. Pyjamas party!!!!!!

Anyway I got myself a laptop already. Well Mummy did. My phone was fixed too. So its 2 down, and two more to come, my Bonia watch and PSP!

Your name is forever, planted in my brain

2009-03-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

When I'm with you, I'll continue to desire for a dream that can never come true

Sometimes movies are really amazing, they teach you how cruel fate can actually be

2009-03-14T21:29:00.003+08:00

I wished they really existed, the feeling was so magical...

I wished you were here, i wished
someone understood me dear

2009-03-13T23:08:00.001+08:00

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

2009-03-11T01:05:00.001+08:00

Find back what I've lost, including you

2009-03-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

I came crashing down

2009-03-08T21:17:00.004+08:00

Please don't go

2009-03-06T21:48:00.003+08:00

When you refuse to love someone because they are hard to love, you forget the fact that they are trying too, even though you are not always easy to love.

Suck a joke.. I laughed at myself so badly that I cried

2009-03-05T21:14:00.001+08:00

We could have gone far enough, but I've seen through so hard. So clear that even memories hurt just like how it backfired at myself

2009-03-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

I really gave that question a thought about it but 'm still afraid that history will repeat itself

2009-03-03T21:29:00.004+08:00

2009-03-02T21:38:00.004+08:00

High fever plus a taste of the rain.. I feel like I'm gonna fall any moment now. No one would have probably guessed how much it hurts

I smiled and i lied
i did and i cried

2009-03-01T11:09:00.003+08:00

Total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart
Once upon a time there was light in my life, but now there's only love in the dark

2009-02-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

Happening... No.

Phone crashed
bill exploded
projects still piling up non stop

I'll take a break first, buy me a kit kat tomorrow can?

Currently sick, apparently sneezing my nose off
Time for a 3000 essay report... wtf

I wished time would just stop

2009-02-25T17:47:00.003+08:00

These lines, so well rehearsed. What am I supposed to say at this point of time, nobody taught me how

2009-02-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

You can forget everything slowly, because I will do the same too. I catch my time to move on, I'd smile even if the worst strikes upon

2009-02-23T21:26:00.001+08:00

我好累能不能抱着我让我大哭一场

2009-02-22T22:20:00.001+08:00

If only you were here

2009-02-19T18:16:00.001+08:00

Nobody cared about my feelings, all they ever cared was who's victory it was in the end. No, it was never my feelings concern

2009-02-18T22:57:00.001+08:00

Zui Xing Fu De Shi - Liang Wen Yin

2009-02-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

What if today, you thought you were still in yesterday

(Get well soon)

2009-02-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

Valentines'

Apparently....... I DID went to the Zoo in the end on Valentine's! Right now I'm so sleepy plus I'm sick. I think I contracted some disease or something lah. Tsk. Shall update again soon, till I'm free again (maybe). Haha ciaos

Where were you dear?

2009-02-13T21:15:00.001+08:00

Blank, totally blank

2009-02-12T22:05:00.003+08:00

After four years this practice is finally going to change. For the first time it felt so wrong but I couldn't salvage no matter how hard I tried. This chain has been broken, yes breaking apart now

2009-02-11T22:51:00.004+08:00

I really miss him.

2009-02-10T20:40:00.001+08:00

B, Sayang and heart to heart sessions is loved

2009-02-09T22:12:00.004+08:00

Stay close to me

Before I forget, I took the 3rd sitting referral for HS last Saturday. It wasn't really a TOUGH paper, but hey, who says it was easy! Tsk. I'm just going to cross my fingers and pray hard la. Meanwhile try to earn money as well. (Just in case) As usual I'm still working on Banquet Ops project, more to come up like FPM and POC. School is just a killer this sem and I'm having my tests in 2 days time which I practically have yet to touch on. Argghhh OKAY I'm soooooooo going to revert to my old days asap when project comes to an end. Its time to chill out and dance till you forget the world now. I missed drinking with Heroine and Sebas. Heard that he opened like 2 bottle of martells? Lol cool shit.

Hees. I think squeezing B is so fun today! I'm kinda addicted to playing people's fats for the past few days, esp Gemok's! Muahaha soft soft one! Dinner with Mr Aw was great, catch up quite alot, see you soon again

Its the last day of full moon today. It looks so beautiful from afar. Is the view the same from America dear? I just thought of you today, so suddenly Yajie ;(

Sleepy...

2009-02-08T23:48:00.003+08:00

Trying to play if afool

Okay I have tons of projects stacking up like a mountain
and it was really bad enough to be sick on class gathering day
I haven really recovered and yet I'm here rushing my projects like mad
and its finally exam weeks in few days time and I hope time won't prolong
I feel like I've so much to do yet so little time, Tsk

Till then, projects, school work and tests are killing me
TSK. ZzZZZzz

I was the one left behind.

2009-02-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

None of that felt as bad as this

You're so near in my screen, yet so far in reality

2009-02-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

Nobody understand how I feel, I thought you ~~did.~~

2009-02-04T21:16:00.001+08:00

Longing, out of here

2009-02-03T20:28:00.005+08:00

Nobody's safe

You're so fucking childish that I don't fucking want to bother. Its not even my fucking problem nor my fault. Can't believe it, wth are you fucking thinking? Like whatever, you think I fucking care?

You'll never learn your lesson and I'm not giving in. I had enough and you were the one who went too overboard this time. Whatever it takes I won't give in, even if its gonna tear everything down. I don't care. You don't even fucking bother and take people's feelings into consideration, why should I?

Look who's talking now bitch, fuck off

Enough said, this is how it will be

2009-02-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

What if

Thanks, even though you weren't true. The more I tried to laugh, the more i tried to smile, it still came back home to me. I guess time will heal it all back, back to the right spot now

2009-01-31T10:03:00.001+08:00

A little but so not over

I need someone to calm me down, before I start to kill them all

2009-01-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

Stop all the world now

Charlene is fucked so you better shut up cb fuckers

2009-01-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

Paint my love colours

Okay I'm here to share with you one of my biggest hobby now. Haha bet you'd love him like I do.... OMG. You know good things must always share one right! So now the long anticipating one.......

ISN'T HIM ADOARBLE?

Okay I know its abit blur, he's too camera shy lah. Refuse to let me take his picture no matter what. Anyway this is XXL Baobei (I named it myself) He's actually my Sister's friend's hamster. She went over to Malaysia to celebrate new year so this adoarable baby came to my house for a vacation! Hees. So cute right?! Bet you want to squeeze his fats and snuggle him up, just like what i always do!

Okay next, today is 28 JAN! And its my dearest baobei's birthday! Hees. Though it wasn't much of a surprise thingy and not lotsa presents I hope she still enjoyed the celebration! Haha anyway Jenny was nice to let us off early, becos We're so GOING TO SWENSENS! :D But I had sucha a long time waiting for my BBQ chicky. Zzz even Mirul's burger came which has an egg in it, shouldn't the chicken come first before the egg?! Okay wait, its very contradicting I know.

Anyway B, here's something for you. I know we weren't really close until like during attachment times, when we hang around together, work together, chat together, act stupid, haha remember christmas eve? That was the best session with you so far. Hees finally you've turned legal first, and I'm the LAST to be, as always.. =( Anyway hope you enjoyed all those laughters we had @ Swensens, the ice cream cake too! Love you tons baby, you know our friendship will definitely last us a lifetime. Muacks

Cyn, Char, Wi

(Birthday girl!)

Monster is so annoying at times but I still love you okay you idiot! Remember you owe me breakfast! Tsk. Ciao

2009-01-26T14:40:00.002+08:00

I'm at my wits end and I just kept on crying. I'm not afraid of death nor dying. I shall grant your wish now, taking a gamble. Maybe dying can really solve the problems, everything

2009-01-24T21:35:00.004+08:00

Ti Wo Ai Ni - Chen Di Ya

I'm reaching a point whereby I'm just 0.001% more to insanity.

Will someone be there, is someone there.. All these question I actually asked backfired on me. Despite myself trying to stay calm play it off cool in the end I'm still the same. I never wanted to end our friendship because of love. I never meant to hurt any one of you but sometimes I know I can't help it. I'm sorry for all the pain I brought but I really mean no harm.

No one ever saw me trying, nobody knew how much I was trying.. to make everything perfect without flaws. I guess I fail, as always. No matter how much I tried, how hard I try, nothing will go in my way..

I want to go the airport. See how the planes fly.. looked up the sky and asked, could my sorrows fly too..

I tried to stay strong. I tried my best not to cry... Yajie...

My tears are nothing, worthless anymore

2009-01-23T21:41:00.003+08:00

May I?

My dear sweetheart, I only have one word for you. That is I will never leave you alone, and our friendship will go all the way down the 100th years we might live. You'll always be my dear friend, my close sister, and definitely my loved one.

-
You made me found hope.. but you made me so heartbroken when we're so near yet so far. Speechless, yes I guess thats what explains it all now. I miss... I really miss you, y

For love, for loyalty, for the only one woman in this world, Melinda said

2009-01-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

Ok now I realised changing of email is worst than blog jumping. Asshole, practically falling asleep infront of my 24" LCD screen replying to people's most typical question "WHO ARE YOU?". Damn it just shut up and wait, I'll decide to remain or kick you out ok! Argh school's boring me out, my mood's getting very affected. Something made me very happy today through the net, but somehow the happiness didn't lasted long enough. Oh yeah, I'm meeting my all-time-fav girl tomorrow for dinner, love you lots

Sign off

2009-01-21T22:13:00.002+08:00

Miss you finally

Charlene is sick
irregular headaches
stomache upset
twisted her feet
injured wrist not yet recovered
I miss home
I really miss you..

My determination for you is wearing off. I know I promised not to desire nor ask for more. I know I promised to keep love in silence and wait till fate revisits again. This feeling inside of me is getting stronger each and every day but none of this is getting us somewhere. Maybe beside me is not where you really belong, I should have gave up my wishful thinking from long. I know no matter how hard I try, nothing will be the same anymore.

I came just to say goodbye, I didn't want you to see me cry. Don't worry, ~~I'm fine~~

Okay, Idk what I just blog, just ignore me
I had a very bad dream last night, uneasy feelings all over